i dono why..

i dono why...
dono why im feeling kinda disheartened..
dono why im feeling very tired..
dono why im feeling so, so tired..
can someone understand my pain of not seeing any $ after getting my monthly pay?
can someone understand the pain of finding $ for the family and even for my studies?
can someone understand my lost and helplessness when i have to fork out 2 person's allowance everyday and the old man dont appreciate it at all?
can someone understand my helplessness when my sis quarrel with my mum, i can do nothing at all?
can someone understand, no matter how i try to savage the situation, she will just rebuke and makes sure she is right in everything?
can someone enlighten me, wat is right and wat is wrong?
wat is should and wat is should not?
can someone understand, it hurts to see mum feeling so helpless, heartache..
can someone understand, no matter how hard i try, she's not trying?
or i shouldn't even try?
or i shouldn't even care?
or im just useless?
can someone understand, i have tried, i am trying hard..
wat could have become of this family if i did not bother?
or this is already not a family?
can someone understand, watever i've done, is not for mysf only?
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