i dono why..

i dono why...
dono why im feeling kinda disheartened..
dono why im feeling very tired..
dono why im feeling so, so tired..
can someone understand my pain of not seeing any $ after getting my monthly pay?
can someone understand the pain of finding $ for the family and even for my studies?
can someone understand my lost and helplessness when i have to fork out 2 person's allowance everyday and the old man dont appreciate it at all?
can someone understand my helplessness when my sis quarrel with my mum, i can do nothing at all?
can someone understand, no matter how i try to savage the situation, she will just rebuke and makes sure she is right in everything?
can someone enlighten me, wat is right and wat is wrong?
wat is should and wat is should not?
can someone understand, it hurts to see mum feeling so helpless, heartache..
can someone understand, no matter how hard i try, she's not trying?
or i shouldn't even try?
or i shouldn't even care?
or im just useless?
can someone understand, i have tried, i am trying hard..
wat could have become of this family if i did not bother?
or this is already not a family?
can someone understand, watever i've done, is not for mysf only?
=..<

Last day of 2007 - 1st day of 2008

if you ask me, wat are the best things i have received / done in 2007, my answers are below:

*registered for a marketing degree course to upgrade and motivate mysf
*my Ang supported me morally and half financially
*knowing some nice and fun colleagues in ctl - i used to be very hapi working there
*had a slightly better bonus then others, coz i was over, overloaded
*had a wtf sudden operation to remove the unwanted irritating appendix, made me realise how i should cherish good health
*striked a small tiny 4D after my appendicitis operation and the number was kinda my bed and ward no.
*quit ctl and took a break and at the same time study for stats exam
*resting and found a job within 1 month
*the job has a better pay den previous and might get to travel

****without my taktak, my ang, colleagues' support, 2007 wouldnt have passed on smoothly...thank you all :)
*most impt of all...
===i got to know him===

he sparked my attention when his cheeks glowed red on the 1st day we coincidentally met at Jurong Mrt station.heehee very cute..and holding a book with highlighter in his hands reading up, wow ++++ points! he truly touched my heart when i had a wtf ops in ttsh. he was on duty full-time to acc me for my 4 days stay in hospital. it aches to see him rush here and there for me, cancelling all the tuition apptmts, skipping a few classes, lacking sleep with the panda eyes coming out le. 1st to reach when i wake up from slp, last to leave to get the last train. he made me so, so touched..life's made beautiful by him.
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: : 31 Dec 2007 Lunch: :
it was half day at work :)
taktak went to queenstown (Alexandra Village market) with me to have our most awaited black charsiew and exotic avocado drink! and we FINALLY get to eat after failing twice previously as they closed for rest! it looks BLACK but it is GOOOOOOOOOOD! after tat satisfying lunch, we went to ikea for walk, tea and ice cream! hapi!

look at the signage and it MUST BE the one behind my dear! avocado drink stall is beside it!

: : 31 Dec 2007 Dinner : :
after the lazy ikea trip, we were pondering whether to join dearie's frens for steamboat at their house or get to marina south pier which taktak has planned earlier. luckily his fren informed there's a change of plan, they're going to suntec for dinner instead. so we decided to head to The Central for dinner. wanted to go WARAKU but there was a battle there. yes, battle. TOO crowded and too messy and noisy. thus we went to another pretty authentic jap restaurant for food.

amazed, they only sell THREE types of ramen and some side dishes. we were doubting their standard, but since i was craving hard for ramen, my dear gave in to go for this simple dinner with me :) to our surprise, the dishes looked REAL simple but taste extraordinarily nice esp with their cosy ambience. after the extraordinarily simple dinner, we went dating at Marina South Pier :) he took the extra extra effort to find this place and made it perfect for our new year's eve & also our Happy 8 month celebration. thank you dear =)

Look simple but unbelievably tasty! South Marina Pier, romantic nite :)

the celebration drinks the guy who gave me a romantic nite

i had a wonderful 2007.. welcoming 2008 warmly :)

cheers! all the best!