i dono why..

i dono why...
dono why im feeling kinda disheartened..
dono why im feeling very tired..
dono why im feeling so, so tired..
can someone understand my pain of not seeing any $ after getting my monthly pay?
can someone understand the pain of finding $ for the family and even for my studies?
can someone understand my lost and helplessness when i have to fork out 2 person's allowance everyday and the old man dont appreciate it at all?
can someone understand my helplessness when my sis quarrel with my mum, i can do nothing at all?
can someone understand, no matter how i try to savage the situation, she will just rebuke and makes sure she is right in everything?
can someone enlighten me, wat is right and wat is wrong?
wat is should and wat is should not?
can someone understand, it hurts to see mum feeling so helpless, heartache..
can someone understand, no matter how hard i try, she's not trying?
or i shouldn't even try?
or i shouldn't even care?
or im just useless?
can someone understand, i have tried, i am trying hard..
wat could have become of this family if i did not bother?
or this is already not a family?
can someone understand, watever i've done, is not for mysf only?
=..<

Last day of 2007 - 1st day of 2008

if you ask me, wat are the best things i have received / done in 2007, my answers are below:

*registered for a marketing degree course to upgrade and motivate mysf
*my Ang supported me morally and half financially
*knowing some nice and fun colleagues in ctl - i used to be very hapi working there
*had a slightly better bonus then others, coz i was over, overloaded
*had a wtf sudden operation to remove the unwanted irritating appendix, made me realise how i should cherish good health
*striked a small tiny 4D after my appendicitis operation and the number was kinda my bed and ward no.
*quit ctl and took a break and at the same time study for stats exam
*resting and found a job within 1 month
*the job has a better pay den previous and might get to travel

****without my taktak, my ang, colleagues' support, 2007 wouldnt have passed on smoothly...thank you all :)
*most impt of all...
===i got to know him===

he sparked my attention when his cheeks glowed red on the 1st day we coincidentally met at Jurong Mrt station.heehee very cute..and holding a book with highlighter in his hands reading up, wow ++++ points! he truly touched my heart when i had a wtf ops in ttsh. he was on duty full-time to acc me for my 4 days stay in hospital. it aches to see him rush here and there for me, cancelling all the tuition apptmts, skipping a few classes, lacking sleep with the panda eyes coming out le. 1st to reach when i wake up from slp, last to leave to get the last train. he made me so, so touched..life's made beautiful by him.
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: : 31 Dec 2007 Lunch: :
it was half day at work :)
taktak went to queenstown (Alexandra Village market) with me to have our most awaited black charsiew and exotic avocado drink! and we FINALLY get to eat after failing twice previously as they closed for rest! it looks BLACK but it is GOOOOOOOOOOD! after tat satisfying lunch, we went to ikea for walk, tea and ice cream! hapi!

look at the signage and it MUST BE the one behind my dear! avocado drink stall is beside it!

: : 31 Dec 2007 Dinner : :
after the lazy ikea trip, we were pondering whether to join dearie's frens for steamboat at their house or get to marina south pier which taktak has planned earlier. luckily his fren informed there's a change of plan, they're going to suntec for dinner instead. so we decided to head to The Central for dinner. wanted to go WARAKU but there was a battle there. yes, battle. TOO crowded and too messy and noisy. thus we went to another pretty authentic jap restaurant for food.

amazed, they only sell THREE types of ramen and some side dishes. we were doubting their standard, but since i was craving hard for ramen, my dear gave in to go for this simple dinner with me :) to our surprise, the dishes looked REAL simple but taste extraordinarily nice esp with their cosy ambience. after the extraordinarily simple dinner, we went dating at Marina South Pier :) he took the extra extra effort to find this place and made it perfect for our new year's eve & also our Happy 8 month celebration. thank you dear =)

Look simple but unbelievably tasty! South Marina Pier, romantic nite :)

the celebration drinks the guy who gave me a romantic nite

i had a wonderful 2007.. welcoming 2008 warmly :)

cheers! all the best!

it has finally come to nearly the end of another year, 2007...

was listening to 987fm this morning on my way to work when Dan & Young talked abt "what were the best things that have happened in your 2007" and it had me wandered off to the thoughts, almost the whole day....
time now is 1:58am 29 Dec 2007, i'll be posting what has happened on 28 Dec 2007 and before..

28 Dec 2007
- was my 6th day @ my new company opp Har Par Villa (lol tat's wat i always say when pple ask where my office is)
- had a 'qing gong yan dinner' with the Just Married Mr & Mrs Seng + Ah long ge and Ah Yu @ Taste of Thailand (Chong Pang)
- had a chitchat session and ROM photo browsing where i saw my maggi mee head once again

23 Dec 2007 - cincin & taktak FIRST x'mas celebration
* my dear taktak brought me to tour ard marina square, die also don wan to tel me where he's bringing me to
*i told him, u really don wan to tel me? i can bring u there! he DONT wan to say wan to keep me in suspense..
*dinner time is nearing after the "tour" and he finally surrenderred by saying "we go the hotel beside Oriental, u know how to go?" .....i was like.. kns..beside Oriental so many hotel.. all i named, none was correct.
i was wondering if it's really beside Oriental ant..lol.
*when we finally walked out of marina square in the open linkway to the hotels, he finally told me "ok la i tel u, we are going Ritz Carlton." i was like OMG, wtf..RITZ CARLTON?! are you mad?
*hehe i din believe him so i said.. dont play la.. tel me where faster! coz booking time's very close liao!
*he still insisted "REALLY! we're going Ritz Carlton for free flow nuggets buffet!" den i dared him u sure ah, ok i bring u there..=p
*coincidentally, i saw the RitzC back hotel entrance so i RE-confirmed with him, SURE GOING IN? he said "YES!"
*we went in, went to the TOILET 1st. LOL..to my astonishment, kns he REALLY made a reservation! omg!
*the entrance attracted me with a DAMN high ceiling. attracted me with a DAMN mesmerising GRAND PIANO.
attracted me with a DAMN nice ambience. attracted me with a DAMN lovely, romantically planned xmas celebration. deardear, deardear...thank you for the sweetest xmas dinner:) it was my best xmas spent.
and i wanna my next xmas with you, and next, and next and next and next...............................

the high high ceiling lovely desserts~yummy~

our sumptuous xmas dinner!.................. thank you deardear ~muackz~

22 Dec 2007 - The day we call MR & MRS Seng
- a blissful event was held in sentosa which tied the knots of a young and loving couple - we joined in to help out and have fun. most important of all, to witness the happy event with all our blessings
- on our way home, we decided to have woodgrove prata. waited for a freaking >45mins which came only drinks and naan. as usual my taktak SAYS he go pay bill, we go take car 1st. LOL... pple who knows will noe whether the bill is being settled.. hehehe...
The white angels


The mysterious couple behind the red fans











Yohoo! e-clubbers gift exchange!

wonderful events before dec 2007 coming up in next episode.....

the birth of xindythesmallgal.blogspot.com

What triggered me to start blogging when, at the very beginning, i actually LOL at my ger when she told me she has a blog! OMG~
1. i saw mongmong taking pics of the food, drinks etc at our poly gang gathering, and i asked him, "mongmong, why you keep taking pics?"
Mong's reply, "oh i want to post on my blog mah.." ~i was ATTRACTED. NOT to him, but his actions which made me interested.hehehe~
2. i admit, i've been very free lately. thus, 10 Dec i went dating with deardear starting from lunch.
Datespot 1: we went all the way to HONG LIM COMPLEX for the ever famous CRAYFISH HORFUN, but unfortunately, the stall rested on that day! *sad*
however, we still managed to indulge ourselves in the sumptuous food there by having:
- char kway teow
- minced pork mee pok
- FAMOUS curry chicken beehoon
Datespot 2: After lunch, we rolled to bugis village to get a sundress for our frens' ROM dinner at sentosa. After much recce, i finally found a simple white dress @ $28!!
Datespot 3: We rushed back to woodlands for a movie -Golden Compass-
It was a fantastic, fascinating and illusional show! i love it when i dono what's the next step the show is gonna feature!
Datespot 4: not really dating but, we met up with yinger to get my long-awaited "HUAN HUAN AI" vcd part 2 from her to ease "siansation" at home.
I had a great day with my dear, and i wanna record it down. :)
3. The very next morning, i online as usual to job hunt. i felt a sudden itch under my thigh area and of the wonderful common sense, i SCRATCHED. after much scratching, i realised, how come it became so hot and swollen?? and i looked at it, i was like OH WTF??! BIG BIG patches of rash! therefore, i took pics of it and had the urge to post it somewhere, just somewhere...

this is the wtf rashes on both my fat thighs










then i thought of "giving birth" to xindythesmallgal.blogspot.com